i just need somewhere to organize my thoughts right now.
4 days ago, in a fourteen minute period, my life complicated itself beyond understandable description.
and now the next eight months will determine a lot.
everything feels so raw.
as if there is an emotion matching every situation going on right now.
one separate emotion.
scared, anxious, happy, excited, nervous
as if my insides are water
running rapidly, each current chasing each other
as if its a race
and the finish line
will determine who will dominate what.
and whichever wins will overpower the other
i don't want the negative to dominate the positive.
god needs to win.
once my thoughts stop arguing with themselves.